welcome to my diary! like the name suggests, it's basically my own little blog; a place where i can put whatever i want relating to the band or my musical journey (whether that's with my own or other's music). all entries will remain available, with the latest being at the top of the page, and the oldest at the bottom.
july 11th, 2024
i'm currently working on a solo project, i already made the album cover for an album that's gonna be in the works soon. i don't want it to be anything heavy, i'm going for more of an alex g style with it. just acoustic/clean guitars, no distortion or anything. i won't share much info yet since i want it to be on the low, but it's mainly just gonna be something i can use to vent. it'll all be about personal experiences/struggles. if there's any updates i'll jot them down here, and maybe even give some previews of songs that are to come. :)
july 1st, 2024
i have two songs in the works right now. i know i should be writing way more, but i'm distracted by school. i'm not gonna spoil too much, but my favourite one out of the two is about some really awful trauma i went through not long ago. both the songs are about trauma, but the one i mentioned is extremely special to me. i wrote it in under 15 minutes during a panicked state i was in, and it felt so healing. i need to tweak the chorus.
i find that i can't exactly write well when i'm in a good mood. i think my bad experiences fuel my musical creativity more than the positive ones, because even when i tried to write about my partner, i was stumped. when i write about my terrible experiences, it goes as smooth as butter. it's kind of annoying, but then again i'm just glad to be able to write about something.
i wanna include a lot of screaming in our works. i wanna encapsulate my pain through the best way i know; music and being loud. i'm really inspired by life is peachy (korn), society anxiety (sunk loto), three dollar bill y'all (limp bizkit), big picture lies (sunk loto), that kinda stuff. i'm drawn towards songs with screeches and wails and screams that are supposed to represent pain. music is such a beautiful way of coping, and i want it to be my way of coping.
i hope i don't sound pretentious or anything with what i've written here lol... i just like having a space to freely express my thoughts. i'm a passionate writer and will never pass on the chance to do something like this. besides, i love sharing things like this with others, it's healing in a way. even if no one is truly interested, it's just nice to put it out there. speaking your mind never hurt anybody.